26 March 2007

how many vampires do you have?

how, do you ask, do you recognize vampires -- and no, i'm not talking about people who are the creatures of the night who may or may not be amongst the undead, but rather as being the things that suck your energy from you ...

here on the internet you have likely NOT been able to go through this group experience without seeing a video or two on the illuminati or the corporate greed machine ... conspiracy theories abound, but what do those things really have to do with your everyday life?

after all, can you exist in america without a checking account? a social security number? a credit card? those are the tools of the so-called illuminati, the corporations, the "greed machines" ... so, how free can you truly be if you are born into and completely integrated into the system they have created?

every relationship you have, you choose to be in: good ones and bad ones. someone cannot maintain a relationship with you unless you reciprocate energy within the relationship. your engagement with individuals or companies are relationships -- just being a citizen of the united states -- born here or not -- is a chosen relationship. often these relationships, especially those with large organized energies designed with specific intent and purpose, are one-sided -- you are subjected to their conditions or rules or you are penalized, hurt, diminished. often, in relationships with corporate entities, your values or needs have little impact on the way they relate to you or treat you. it is, all about them -- some of the relationships you may inherit just from the happenstance of your birth.

astrologically, the 2nd/8th house and taurus/scorpio polarities are where these types of relationships are revealed. where the 2nd house is "personal resources," "personal values," or, as rob hand ("horoscope symbols", whiteford press, 1981, pp. 343-4) puts it, "the part of the ego that desires to flow beyond the boundaries of the body to attach itself to external entities, making them part of one's being," AND, where the 8th house is "other people's resources," "other people's values," or, as rob hand put it, "inner energies that want to reach out and experience the world, which compel one to shed any attachments that impede them, and which thus force one ahead toward growth and change" .... oh, the things that make me go 'hmmmmm'!

we want to have those carrots, we want the life we see portrayed, we want the things we want, often we want the things we think we have been born to have ... and, to the extent they are not given to us by our happenstance of birth, we go out and seek them. usually, in order to do so, we engage in their rules ... our needs and desires require us to attach ourselves to others to get what we want. the 8th house, "other peoples attachments" become attached to us. when that happened, did we know what exactly what that attachment was? did we care? or did we just want what we want without considering our inner energies' true needs and desires? because it is our inner energies that engaged in the relationship to bring about change and growth. some of the relationships we inherit we inherit for that same inner drive for change, growth and transformation -- even those things we inherit we need to examine to see if they are good relationships based on OUR values.

in her vampire series, anne rice's narrator of the story wanted to become a vampire. he sought it out. did he finally become one? i forget, as i read the books so long ago. but the one thing i remember is that lestat and the other vampires attacked victims at will, ruthlessly taking from 'innocent' victims all the time. yet, somehow, this narrator was 'protected' -- not with garlic or crosses, but with something different -- perhaps it was simply his awareness.

wanting what you want in life is important, knowing what you want in life is even more important. knowing the inner energies that drive you to allow the attachment of yourself to other people, their values and resources -- always remembering that their resources are only powerful if you choose to allow them to attach them to you -- will bring about the true change you ultimately desire. ultimately, everyone wants love -- then there are some who want security, freedom, power, peace, harmony. and the list could go on, but those are some of the basic desires of humans. each of your relationships -- inherited or consciously made -- must be examined.

the first step is to understand your own values and resources. this includes what you will and will not accept, tolerate or do in order to get what you want. you should evaluate each of your relationships and see if your values are being matched by the other person or entity, and how they consider and use their resources and attach themselves to your resources. is it a one-way street? that's not a relationship. is it a "do as i say or you are penalized" relationship? that is master-slave relationship. is a '"we are mutually benefitting" relationship -- where their needs are being filled by your resources and your needs are being filled by their resources, and the value you have is mutual growth and benefit?

i think if we are all honest without ourselves we realize that if the relationship does not fall into that last definition, there's no real reason to engage in the relationship UNLESS you have something else you need to learn about how to value yourself and how to relate to others -- this should be especially true in the area of finances.

and just like that last boyfriend who was no good, any company or organization -- no matter how big it is -- can be dropped off and left standing with their jaw open. of course, most corporations, banks, credit cards, governmental agencies won't really be phased by your dismissal, they may not even notice it or pay attention to it. that's ok because they have their own lessons to learn. the question for you is "am i doing what i need to do and am i worth it?' its not easy to be disengaged from the structure that is created to attach itself to your resources -- it is well designed and huge. it will take you going around things and constructing a life that is free from their attachments and re-making or constructing attachments you choose to make for healthy, balanced reasons -- the narrator in rice's vampire chronicles, sought out the relationship with the vampires, he was not a victim of them.

peace & harmony,
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'