21 May 2009

Adrift in the After Life of the Titanic

The Titanic is sinking. You are sitting in a row boat with several other people. This is the new reality, what now?

There is never an easy answer when you are working in the world of symbols until hindsight can reveal the truth from a new perspective. At best, we can glean a glimpse of understanding in the present moment from the symbols we see and their connection in life. Because life is what each of us gives our own unique definition to that which we experience -- truly the meaning of symbols are in the eye of the holder.

The "given" meaning of symbols sometimes mean very little until life experience provides a backdrop for a connection to the collective definitions we give to one symbol or another. To some, something as simply as nursery rhyme can provide the ultimate direction in life:

"Row, Row, Row Your Boat
Gently Down the Stream
Merrily Merrily Merrily
Life is but a dream!"

For others, its just a song we sing as children and it has no meaning. But, if you will and see it as such, all our experience in our world is, in essence, a symbol. You are a symbol of your presently incarnated history, perception, understanding and knowledge. Everything you experience is a symbol.

The Sabian symbols are a new tool I've begun to integrate in my synthesis of astrological symbols, and the Sabian symbology for the current Neptune-Jupiter-Chiron conjunction, which planets are sidereally calculated today at Aquarius 2º28", 2º1", and 2º11", respectively, is:

A deserter from the navy stands suddenly aware of the dawning truth that freedom is never the result of compromise.

The synthesis of this conjunction is that which expands or digs deeper into the illusion or the illumination of cosmic truth for the self to heal. Jupiter which took the wounded centaur, Chiron, is his patron. Jupiter placed Chiron in the stars after Chiron sacrificed himself for Prometheus, hence ending his immortal suffering. Neptune provides a cosmic infusion of cosmic haze in which this stellium is crafting a new reality to be revealed only after the haze is blown away.

Chiron is about the places in our lives that we are rejected just because of who we are. Chiron was rejected by his mother because although, being the son of Kronus (Saturn) he was born an immortal, he was born a centaur. From the cradle we are adjusted so that our expressions and actions are "acceptable." But it is in that cradle when we know ourselves the most intimately . . . what we truly think, what we truly desire to express, who we truly are. As we look now to try to heal the areas we rejected because of our socialization, we must focus our love to accept the parts of us that are us that may have not been what others accepted in us.

A tall order, and definitely one of those "easier said than done," but we have help. Neptune is the cosmic lover, and the planet that dissolves the illusions we have when it comes to our understanding of ourselves. Neptune knows no shame. If others are misunderstanding where you are coming from, laugh.

If its a stressful and serious time with a lot of old patterns of judgment and shame being experienced, Neptune may incite you to indulge in your favorite mind medication, but use this wisely. Medication must be undertaken with the intention of healing, not hiding. The negative affect of hiding through medication can amplify the illusions that have crafted this wound, and you may be digging a deeper hole and you may never find your way out.

Don't you wish you could have laughed at your parents the first time they shamed you because you just said how fake Uncle John's toupee looked? Everyone knew it was funny, probably even Uncle John, but you were shamed because you saw and expressed the humor of innocent observation. The shame is not in what you said, but they felt shame because of what they perceived as an intention you couldn't possibly have.

People do this to one another all the time. "You are guilty because you were doing X." When in reality all you were really doing was Y. But, because the other ascribed what would be their intention on your actions, the projection of shame and guilt results. As an adult, your best response is laughter. If you get on the defensive, you have to ask yourself why you are there? And then, go and take the memory trip to the place the wound began . . . likely that's back to your childhood. What triggered that defensive mechanism?

Tropically, the Sabian symbol at 27º Aquarius is:

In the quiet of afternoon in the cool of an art connoisseur's library is an old pottery bowl with fresh violets.

Applying this healing process to the world that is entrenched in the prevailing energy of our time, is this symbol -- fresh violets in a place where the old is revered, honored and sacred -- and held onto.

Being the breath of fresh air and a shocking bit of the "new vision" for those still living in the reality that is the past (the one that no longer works), reveals this is a time for you to grace that reality with burst of color, life and truth that only you can embody.

So many of us who have become aware of what we are to do, this is the time to do it no matter the ridicule, judgment, shame or guilt others use to cripple our movement, growth and healing. They need us to be bold, obnoxiously and perhaps even laughably ourselves. If they take you wrong, laugh at the absurdity of their projections of your intentions! Soon, they too will recognize how far from the truth they were, and will laugh along with you. For those that do not, you will help them best by "keep on keeping on" in the journey that is unapologetically your's!

peace & harmony,
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'