10 December 2010

Karmic Neptune Conflict

"Karma gets released when you just let it go."

I either read or heard this statement this week or maybe it was just a song lyric that struck me then stuck with me (although its one of those things as I retraced my steps to find it again, it is nowhere to be found).

Sounded easy enough.
And, of course, it really is that simple, right?

But how do you just "let it go" when "it" is this elusive thing you think you've figured it out, until that karmic wave returns for another round of chaos and conflict to remind you that, "Nope, that 'it' wasn't it!"

I was having a conversation this evening and I was accused, as I often am, of creating conflict. I felt like the other person had not heard a word that I was saying (yes, Mercury retrograde in full effect!) and had no idea why I even said what I did. But, that conversation led me to this thought, and I felt that maybe this is what this "it" is:   You do not create conflict.

Conflict merely exists.

There's one side and then there's the other. The duality of our existence simply is what makes a whole reality.  Perhaps karma is simply the process of working in the conflict you find yourself and doing it better each time you find yourself in the midst of the same conflict, and you release the karma when you realize you did not create the conflict, you merely created the need or desire to experience it.

If karma works on a debt kind of situation like some people propose, you are here to help the whole by being in that unique energy that interacts with all the other energies it attracts to create the reality that swirls into existence because you are alive and breathing on planet earth. And, that reality is created, conflict and all, to bring the whole back into unity in a new way.

Karma is what keeps bringing that process back again and again and again until you understand how YOU are supposed to work in the reality (conflict and all) you find yourself. And, understand that YOU are supposed to do this for the purpose of, to use a political term, "form[ing] a more perfect union" with all that exists.

If you accept that you do not create conflict, then your ego cannot be attached to the existence of the conflict or which role you play in it, other than you need to play your role.  Life is indeed a state, and you are an actor on the stage with the outcome to be whatever will be written by all the players present in this particular improvisation we call life.

So, I thought, how is it that we can recognize that we are actually in a conflict that is karmically connected to us, specifically. When do we need to pay the debt? How big is our role in bringing the whole closer to oneness through the process of being in conflict in order to make the whole complete? What part of creating peace is our responsibility?

Another "con" word came to my mind: 'confusion.' Confusion or chaos is what exists in opposition to order. To the extent you are confused (e.g., when something does not make sense to you), is the degree to which you are to play your role in the conflict to make the situation whole. If you are not confused, then don't get involved unless you are asked to help clear up the confusion, and offer your lines THEN let it go for others to exist in the conflict until they find their way to unity and clarity. If you can do that, then you will live in peace even though others are in conflict.

These are very Neptunian thoughts, I realize, and playing with the symbols of astrology along these lines poses some interesting concepts to be applied to the personal Neptunian experience and to karma. Neptune is the planet representing the "dissolving" of realities -- sounds like a "letting it go" process to me. Being a part of the collective planets, it is about the connection between you and the whole: your purpose, your role, your place in the conflict.

The better you can recognize and accept the role you play in the collective, the better you can help bring the conflict that already exists into peace and harmony -- both in your personal life and in the world.

You do not have the power to create conflict any more than you have the power to make your heart beat. Your heart beats. Conflict exists. You do have the power to create peace, just as you have the power to create a healthy environment for your heart to continue to beat. And, sometimes you don't and 'shit happens.' All you can do is your best in the moment.

Perhaps, karma is nothing more than playing the "con" game knowing that all you do is really and truly only love.

peace & harmony,
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'

01 December 2010

A Retro Holiday

I saw that while this Holiday Season comes upon us, so does the final Mercury retrograde of 2010!  Lovely!  I just can't wait to see what it has in store for us.

I think I'll just stay in and shop online . . . or not at all!

Expect the intensity we are experiencing now to only increase -- which is customary for the holiday season, but in a certain area of your life, its going to be like intensity on steroids.  And, hopefully by now, you know you can control the flow of that intensity, if you remain on your toes and proactively aware of the energies you are actually experiencing.

What twists this holiday season, is Mercury will be retrograde all by itself.  This is kind of a rare thing for Mercury to be without the retrograde company of at least one of the outer collective planets to give us all a theme to unite our experience.  So, don't expect too much understanding from your compatriots for the travesty that is your life. This Holiday Season will be very personal indeed, and unless you are having fun together, the common ground will be scare indeed.  READ:  go to every party you are invited to and leave your worries at home.

What is Mercury's eye going to be magnifying during this time of year which is already over electrified?  Start keeping track now to the areas where communication and movement seems keen to draw your attention.  When its all said and done, we will all likely have great battle stories to tell, and a few funny one's too.  After all, Mercury will be playing in Sagittarius and Capricorn if you are immersed in the world around us, but reality has it retrograding completely in Sagittarius.  WHICH MEANS:  expect to have the mundane routine of your life kicked out from under you!  Either the prevailing party energy will unseat any notion you have of being serious to finish out this year, OR, that mundane routine of life will seem so superficial, you just keep asking yourself "Why is my life so meaningless?"

Its always interesting to me that fun and expansion go hand-in-hand with the energies of Sagittarius, and if you find yourself experiencing delay after delay, obstacle after obstacle, static and more static, I suggest you stop whatever it is you thought you were doing and go to a holiday party, or better yet, throw one -- as that would help you integrate the energies of this retrograde very beautifully.

Paying attention to the question, "What more could I want?" would be my advice to anyone trying to expand at this time.  For some, that question maybe should be, "What more should I want?"  For others, the debate which question to ask is really the question. 

Whatever house(s) the retrograde is hitting your personal experience will be the area in life the energies are focused.  If you don't know and aren't inclined to ask or look it up, you can feel it because it will be the area of your life where you find yourself thinking about these questions.  So, pretend you are five years old and climb on Santa's lap once more .... ask away, you may be surprised what the universe thinks you deserve.

That can cut both ways,
so be careful and thoughtful
in what you ask for . . . .

When does this happen ... well, after December 5th, you will feel a surge from Uranus going direct and, for 5 days, every planet will be moving direct until Mercury goes retrograde on the 10th.  Should be a fun lead-in to this holiday season -- if you liked the E ticket rides, you should enjoy the blast of play and expansion this 2010 holiday season offers you.

peace & harmony,
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'